This will be a short post, but to the point. I wonder if it's possible to just let it all go. Let go of all the hurt, pain and memories that have caused me to be an occasional misanthrope. "They" say that you can forgive, but you can never forget and I wholeheartedly believe that. The problem is: I have a ridiculously good memory, and there are some things that just need forgetting.
For me, this week has been one of the toughest and one of the most enlightening; and today I am going to try to let go of it all. I thought I had coined a new term when I came up with "debilitating nostalgia;" --memories that flat out knock me down and out, refusing to let me move forward. A smell, a sight, any trigger--and I was overcome. Then I read an essay by Freud on Melancholia. My term has already been coined- and by Freud himself. I am not an absolute Freudian. I disagree with many of his theories; but when I read this essay, I think he really hit the nail on the head. Anyway, my point is that there is a lot of hurt, and it is so insanely deep. I have lost something and I don't know what. I don't want to feel that way anymore--so I am letting it all go. I think that many people feel similar feelings, otherwise I wouldn't share such a personal story.
I think I can. I think I can. I think I can.
and you can. Let it go. Watch it float by acknowledge it and say goodbye and let it float away.
ReplyDeleteGive your inner child a hug every day. Start her day with words of encouragement. Give her a kiss goodnight, tell her how much you love her and how proud you are of her. Starting today and for the rest of her life, encourage her to start each day with a happy outlook on life, as our outlook affects how we perceive life. You are your own child . . . love yourself. I know you can.
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